Come back, please..

Come back, please..

It's funny how the less you talk,

the more you begin to realize it wasn't meant to be.

It's funny how slow it began,

and how fast it ended.

It's funny how in the beginning you liked me,

but in the end, you liked someone else.

It's funny how you meant everything to me,

but I meant nothing to you.

 I realized that I really really love you, 

the one who could never love me back.

I want you back in my life but I just can't have you.

You already moved on and clearly I didn't.

But I like to tell myself that I have because I believe

that when we tell ourselves the same thing

over and over again, there comes a time when we actually believe it.

I miss you. Come back to my life please.

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Feels Like Rain..

Feels Like Rain..

Woke up a little late today

Looking out the clouds are gray

Got no missed phone calls from you

Still your picture by my bed

Still the one I want instead

But I can't find a way to say

Come back (Come back)

You make up what I lack

My pride has left me all alone

It's getting so cold

I'm closing the windows to stay warm

It's a chill in my soul since you've been gone

The silence is louder than any thunder

Taking me under, Oh

I'm staying home today

Gonna hide away

Cuz it feels like rain

Do you know what it feels like,

Do you know what it feels like,

Do you know what it feels like,

When it feels like rain

Every day just seems the same

And I'm the only one to blame

I tried to play like I'm fine

But I know the pain is here to stay

That your love has washed away

It frozen run down the train

Come back (Come back)

You make up what I lack

My pride has left me all alone

It's getting so cold

I'm closing the windows to stay warm

It's a chill in my soul since you've been gone

The silence is louder than any thunder

Taking me under, Oh

I'm staying home today

Gonna hide away

Cuz it feels like rain

At some point this darkness is bound to fade today

It's so hard to believe this storm will ever blow away

I'm closing the windows to stay warm

It's a chill in my soul since you've been gone

The silence is louder than any thunder

Taking me under, oh

I'm staying home today

Gonna hide away

Cuz it feels like rain

Do you know what it feels like,

Do you know what it feels like,

Do you know what it feels like,

It feels like rain

Do you know what it feels like,

Do you know what it feels like,

Do you know what it feels like,

When it feels like rain

(Feels Like Rain by Kesha)

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Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday

Happy birthday to you. Wish you nothing but the best. Love you. xoxo

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fuck you

fuck you

fuck you, for saying you’d stay. for acting like you cared. for saying you loved me. for saying you’d be there, and then leaving. for turning your back around and leaving me here to pick up the pieces. for forgetting about me. for replacing me. for shoving it in my face that we’re just not the same anymore. for not having the decency to see that what you’re doing is over the edge, too much. you just keep doing this. you just don’t care, all you ever think about is yourself. don’t you get it? don’t you understand how much you’re hurting not me. no, you just can’t seem to see that you’re causing all this irreversible damage to me. my god, i deserves so much better than you. for everything, for being the thoughtless, heartless, stupid little prick that you are, fuck you.

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Dancing With Tears In My Eyes..

Dancing With Tears In My Eyes..

Here we go, welcome to my funeral.

Without you I don't even have a pulse.

All alone it's dark and cold.

With every move I die..

Here I go, this is my confessional.

A lost cause, nobody can save my soul.

I am so delusional.

With every move I die..

I have destroyed our love, it's gone.

Payback is sick, it's all my fault.

I'm dancing with tears in my eyes.

Just fighting to get through the night.

I'm losing it.

With every move I die..

I'm faded, I'm broken inside.

I've wasted the love of my life.

I'm losing it.

With every move I die..

When did I become such a hypocrite?

Double life, lies that you caught me in.

Trust me I'm paying for it.

With every move I die..

On the floor I'm just a zombie.

Who I am is not who I wanna be.

I'm such a tragedy.

With every move I die..

  

This is it and now you're really gone this time.

Never once thought I'd be in pieces left behind..

(Dancing With Tears In My Eyes by Kesha)

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Never..

Never..

I have seen you. Yes, you. The only one person who’s I really want to meet in this last 6 months. The only one person who’s I’m still waiting for. You are still the same. With your favorite glasses, a white polo-shirt and jeans. It’s so your style. I still remember it. I have seen your smile too. A warm smile. A smile which I really really missing to see. A smile which I dreaming of. A smile which can made my days. My days 6 months ago..

I have seen him too. The man who you had dinner with. The man who you were smiling with. It’s so damn hard. And hurt. I really really  want to meet with you, but I never thought to meet you with him. I never even thought to see you smiling for the other guy. Never. I don't know who is he. I don't know what kind of relationship you have with him. I just know you are really happy without me beside you. Not like you, I'm in misery without you here..

I’m already promised to myself I wouldn’t cry again for you. But I can't. A silent tear falls from my eyes. What should I do? What should I say? To make you change your mind. To make you come back to me. You know that everyday I'm still waiting. Waiting for your text, waiting for your call. Waiting for you. Another day comes and goes, but you never come and looking for me..

You ever said you needed me more than I needed you. Why would you say that, if you knew it wasn't true? Why did you say you loved me? Then turn around and set me free? I never understood what's the point and purpose of your coming in my life if you are leaving me alone now..

I love you and want you but I know I can't make you love me. Never..

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